Meltdown

Had 2 meltdowns - once after husband was discharged from hospital and his daughter spoke to me in a confrontational tone.

2nd time - today after hospital called to say tt my husband insisted to be discharged. This is the 2nd time at changi.

Feeling very tired and thinking of leaving him for good.

interesting idea

I tend to worry about money. So my hubby's latest bill is causing me some anxiety issue.

Read a blog where in order to live happily, to deem any money or time loss as a donation. This resonated with me, i immediately feel alot better thinking of the 36k as a large donation to society/charity.

36k bill

My husband's bill turned out to be 36k cash. 

How to tackle this huge bill, I intend to do an instalment plan 18 mth or 36 mth instalment.

Will email hospital to see if can nego on the instalment.

ICU

My husband was admitted to ICU on Tuesday (12 April) morning. I was woke up by him to call an ambulance for him as he was very breathless. I didn't accompany him to the hospital because I need to settle my dogs which were locked in my room then.

After my husband was sent off by the ambulance, I waited for the doctor to call. Shortly after the doc called and I made my way to Changi Hospital A&E.

There the doc suspects a heart attack/failure which caused water to build up in his lungs. He was place on a ventilator and sedated.

I remained in the hospital, waiting for updates. Went to wait by the coffee shop, I downed 5-6 cups as I didn't sleep that night. In between, I made a trip back to my house to clean up the toilet for the dogs and after that, my mum and sis helped to jaga my dogs while I was in hospital.

In the hospital, a lot of time was spent waiting for docs to call me or nurses to update me. I only managed to see my husband in ICU at around 1pm. 

It seems like the trigger was his heart valve issue. It seems like it is inevitable that he has to go for open chest heart valve replacement.

But I doubt he can tahan it.

This means potentially looking at 80k hospital bill (1st 40k already incurred). 

Hopefully with the sale of the car, I can get back 20k, plus my 25k on hand. I will need 35k which I could try to save in the next 1 year.

I know I tend to obsess over monies woes and this 80k bill has been constantly on my mind. I decided to write this worry down so that months or years later, when I revisited this blog, I can then see how I have fared.

I jotted down this action plan, which is to save 3k for the next 1 year.