Xiaobai

I look at xiaobai and she is so thin she looked like she could die any moment. A sense of guilt overwhelm me, why I let her become so...

if i bring her to the vet, they will surely tell me to euthanise her which I dont want. As long she can eat, poop, drink, pee, move, I let her be.

I keep have a feeling she dun have much time left, since June. It dawned on me she might not have much time left - she lost alot of weight and if i feed her more, she LS non stop.

Ppl would think I am starving her but I am not. Feeding her as usual. I hope she dun suffer. 

Just keep her comfortable if it truly is inevitable.

I remembered a few years ago, I cried when I thought xiaobai was dying. Now after my hubby has gone, I feel numbed. I would tear but I also feel very guilty.

LG hope u give me some dreams to advise me how to treat her.