What will I do after I quit?

If I quit by end feb 24, I would rest and continue to exercise to lose some weight before japan trip (last week of March).

How would I occupy myself?

1) Train to run a 10km marathon

2) Erhu (go for grade 6)

3) guqin

4) Swim

5) Python programming

Find a temp or partime job to work 3 days a week.

Barista FIRE

Just got back from a 4d3n genting trip with family. Immediately worked the following day. Work was so hectic that I once again reaffirmed my decisions to tender either jan24 or apr24. 

Can i continue to do this job - the astounding answer is no. Once i put down all my pressures, nothing matters at work. I just want to give some headsup to my supervisor and close colleagues and will make my quiet exit.

After that, intended to rest 6 mths to 1 year. Then will look for a partime job that is lower stress, barista fire.

My dividend income can help pay 70% of my expenses. Only need a partime job that would pay 1000.

Aug month was hard

The month of Aug was difficult, the scenes of that faithful night continued to haunt me. I blamed myself for his death. I could have prevented that. 

Then i would sunk into depression - wanting to die. 

A few nights, I had a dream that I was gunned down. And instead of fear, I remembered very vividly that I heaved a sigh of relief 'finally'. Then pitch darkness. A few moments later, i reappeared in another scene.

It was very telling.... that my ultimate goal was to die in peace. If this was the case, what is holding me from quitting my job.