I have enough

Cannot sleep... so woke up to do some wuliao stuff at 3am.

Was wondering for myself, whar had kept me moving? To sum up, is the idea that one day, I could tell him what I have experienced these past years.

Can I solo travel before my time? This is something weighing on my mind.

Is there something I can do at night when I have alot of time?

Din feel like playing ps5 at night, ended up having lotsa of time. Cant sleep as much as I like.

I am grateful, I have everything I need. 

Bought a leather mj tote

Just spent 480 for a medium marc jacob tote bag. I just bought one canvas one for 208, and now I just spent 480 for a leather tote....i need to stop.

Lost 10kg

I remembered I was 70kg back in Jan 2024. Reason was I just came back from ipoh trip with friends and weighed myself.

Got a very rude shock. Always thought I am ok weight. I was at my heaviest.

When I think back, I was doing the same things as I was, even training for marathons. But the weight did not come off. 

It started gradually coming down especially after I tendered my resignation. The stress from my work wore off and the weight just came down. Plus I was working in part time jobs that need me to stand.

2 years on, my current weight is 60kg. Maintain this weight and monitor if lose weight suddenly. Not a good sign

Build more muscles. Remember this. 

Donations

Ever since he passed on, I made several donations in his name. Did a simple calculations, in past 4 years, I have made about 11k donations.

I wish to 散财 while I can. Did not want my surviving siblings to bear this burden, I shall donate as and when I wish.

Don't forget that there are always people in worse situations, be grateful and do good while u can.

My path to FI

Am I fire? Financial independence retire early?

I would say I am. Why?

Early on, I did some calculations that my FI number would be 500k in investment.

I hit this number only after ys death. But as mentioned earlier, this joy of hitting my FI was lost when he passed on. No point to FI if nobody to spend time with.

I adamantly quit in 2024 July, because I hate my job. I need to manage 2 staff and a few major projects. Ever since my hubby's death in 2022 Aug, I decided to quit my cushy and highly paid job, I endured for another 2 years because I had to pay for the car and his medical expenses 33k. 

As I reflect now, I never regret this decision because I was on the point of mental and physical breakdown. I took a break and then as I was truly bored, started part time jobs in Dec 2024.

The partime jobs were not easy, I gained a newfound respect for anyone doing such jobs.

Now I have quit my partime job and went back to my old company as a temp staff earning a comfy 2kish. I went back because I wanted a job that can keep me active mentally.

How many friends can I ask if I need to borrow money?

I asked myself this question, if I am ever in need of money, who can I ask?

Only 2 names come up, and one did not because she does not have money even if I asked. 

Although the real test of a friendship is usually during trying times, I hope I wont ever need to. The other 2 would be my sisters.

I dont believe in having many friends especially since most are superficial. Though I cannot say I forge deep bonds with my friends, I think they are not the 见死不救。Vice versa, I would lend them even if they cannot pay back.

1 March lazy sunday

Later am going 313 to meet with ASM colleagues for a dinner.

Had bathed lily and swept mopped floor. Practised erhu abit.

Now not sure where to go. Later go google 313 do what