Another carlo rino bag

I got a new and damn small carlo rino bag, erm thought I will be happy ans guess what, I am not. 

The bag is to scratch my itch of a chanel boy bag, and today used it when I went opposite to eat lunch.

The bag is a bit too small, I think I need to learn from this. I prefer bags that are 28cm length.

This was 24 but it feels smaller. I must use it at least 80 times.

Decided to donate 2 bags away.

Bought 2 marc jacob bags, 1 speedy like bag, 1 colorful tote and now this bag. Got another taobao red bag coming. When it comes, i will donate my tote away? See how, very very spendy but if I dont spend, I also dunno what to do with the money. Have donated some.

Where Wind Meets

This is a free game to download. Never regret downloading the game, it is quite enchanting especially the stories and the pugilist world. 

Had been playing since Dec 2025 and recently spent 4.50 (yea that is right) to buy 3 sets of costume.

Well, need to let the game company earn some so that they continue to churn out nice stories and stuff.

Compared to other games where I easily spent 40 to 80ish to buy the game, why not slowly spend the same amount playing this game.

Speaking of which, I did not complete my lies of P part 2, the game is just too dark and heavy to play. 

Rather play wwm which has a mixture of dark and light heartedness stories, sub plots and adventure.

Flex

There are some finfluencers that I totally do not want to watch, reason being I feel that they are flexing silently e.g like saying they earn 5 figures per month, they are buying xx million dollar condos.

It feels very out of touch especially if you are earning a low pay. I did not think too much because in the past, I was earning a very good pay but after quitting and taking on a temp role, my pay is 1/3 of what it used to be.

As I watch finfluencers or read reddit, it kinda feel off when they talk about FI with xx millions etc.

Maybe it is just me but those strategies they advocate could hardly apply to people who are living paycheck to paycheck.

I was able to reach barista FIRE by 41 mainly because I had a very high income and could save more and channel those to investments. I remembered back in 2008,2009 I was not able to because I was only earning 2400 per month. Takehome was 2kish.

So for a long time, I had no savings until I switched job and gradually watched my income 4x over 14 years.

Anyway they do theirs, I do I. Now just feeding off my dividend income of 2k per month and income from my temp job which ranges from 1800 to 2800 takehome depending on my hours worked.

Diamond painting

My sister intro me to 5D diamond painting and the rest is history. It has been many years and I used it to stop my rumination.

It made me concentrate on something so that my mind do not wander.

Recently my sister asked me to help finish hers so I am using 2hours a day to stick the beads on it.

I remembered when hubby passed away, I bought 2 diamond painting and it sure helped me pass time. Therapeutic.

Just bought a 1000 pc harry potter jigswa that I intend to start after my diamond painting is done. 

Peers

April is the month where promotion happens. This year there were 4 promotions in my department. 

This year, I felt different from last year. Last year, I felt very jealous (out of nowhere) when one of my team was promoted to section head. She definitely deserved the promotion because she is someone who takes things in her stride and deliver. I was ashamed that I actually felt so jealous.

I was perplexed at my own emotions - if I am jealous of people getting ahead in life, why then did I leave in Jul 2024. These reflection allowed me to calm down and think through quietly. 

My colleagues are mostly at the peak of their life, chiong-ing for their families and themselves. I, on the other end, have no more need to chiong as there is only myself. 

Everybody's life is different and everyone has their values and goals. I already have enough to last me tbrough life. There is no need for me to accumulate promotions or whatsnot as they no longer matter. 

I dont feel happier with more money, what is more with titles. 

I did not have very expensive lifestyle. And do not really like to travel far nowadays.

So back to this year April, I did not feel a tinge of jealously because I know the hard work behind the promotion. I no longer want to lose appetite nor sleep over work. 有钱没命花. My mental and physical health are most important. They suffered alot and got even worse after my hubby passing.

Now, it has been 4 years since my hubby death. It still feel very recent.

I feel contented with my life. If I still want to climb the corporate ladder, I would not have quit. No regrets.

One could say that maybe I am jaded but after my husband passing, you could say I did 看开 certain things.

Health is true wealth...nothing can bring back the health once it is lost. I had some health scares since 2022 and it made me realised what truly mattered.

No amount of accolades or career progression or money could bring back the health lost. Family is also important. Spending time with them is vital.

I have grown and who knows how long I still have. There is no need to hanker after things that never was yours to have. 德不配位，为了什么呢？最终职场上，还不是一场空？

No bag peace

I started compulsively buying bags because of one habit. I could only shit when finger-shopping bags.

I will try to shit daily in the morning and a few years ago, I discovered I would shit when browsing stuff.

So to keep shitting daily, I finger shopped daily and inevitably I would come across some nice ones that I eventually bought.

Tried to change to ps5-ing to trigger the same response but it is not usually successful. Sometimes it works sometimes it does not.

Recent two days, I could not shit despite finger shopping or ps5ing. I had to press my stomache to shit but this is not healthy given my piles condition just 2 months ago.

Haiz something weighing on my mind. Maybe I need drink payaya milk shake every alternate day or so.

Has to monitor the situation as it goes.

Sold UOL

I sold my UOL shares at 9.82 per share. I should have sold it when it hit 11 but i was greedy.

I still wanted to wait till it hit 10 dollars but as I monitored the US Iran war, I felt we are in for a long ride. 

Inflation would be very jialat 6 to 12 months down the road. Then if interest rate rises, reits and property developers would suffer. 

Regret abit about buying Mapletree Industrial Trust cos it might have rights issue especially in high interest environment.

So after selling UOL, would buy more shares of vicom.