Last swimming lesson

I picked up swimming in Aug 2025. This was after a long time think from my pioneer and leaders publisher days.

I remembered back in 2008, I joined the company and within a very short while especially after I came back from my taiwan trip, I put on so much that I decided to learn swimming to lose weight.

Why I decided to pick up swimming after 19 years, well, I kept having the fear of drowning. Even last night, I dreamt I fell into a very deep pool and was drowning.

Now I can swim freestyle and breaststroke. Last time, was only able to swim breaststroke.

My coach may be going overseas, so maybe at most once amonth. I will need to go swim at heartbeat.

When did I stop grinding?

Two years after YS passed away and after settling his medical bill and selling off the car.

I remembered tendering 2 months before Jul 2024, and by July, I settled his medical bill.

In a month or more, I will settle my mortgage. 

Now need to monitor my insurance premium in May then keep the expensive rider until my kidney problem is more clear. This will be in Aug.

Come this Aug, I will be back to my old job for a year. 离不开它

Very free at work, will use the opportunity to learn jap :)

Mandai qingming

Today, we did our qingming pray at mandai for YS. This is the 4th year and did some chatting with ys daughters.

They seemed happy.

Usually after the session, I would feel tired but I cant sleep. 

Tried to sleep but only managed a short while so just get myself up to sit and write my blog. 

I have enough

Cannot sleep... so woke up to do some wuliao stuff at 3am.

Was wondering for myself, whar had kept me moving? To sum up, is the idea that one day, I could tell him what I have experienced these past years.

Can I solo travel before my time? This is something weighing on my mind.

Is there something I can do at night when I have alot of time?

Din feel like playing ps5 at night, ended up having lotsa of time. Cant sleep as much as I like.

I am grateful, I have everything I need. 

Bought a leather mj tote

Just spent 480 for a medium marc jacob tote bag. I just bought one canvas one for 208, and now I just spent 480 for a leather tote....i need to stop.

Lost 10kg

I remembered I was 70kg back in Jan 2024. Reason was I just came back from ipoh trip with friends and weighed myself.

Got a very rude shock. Always thought I am ok weight. I was at my heaviest.

When I think back, I was doing the same things as I was, even training for marathons. But the weight did not come off. 

It started gradually coming down especially after I tendered my resignation. The stress from my work wore off and the weight just came down. Plus I was working in part time jobs that need me to stand.

2 years on, my current weight is 60kg. Maintain this weight and monitor if lose weight suddenly. Not a good sign

Build more muscles. Remember this. 

Donations

Ever since he passed on, I made several donations in his name. Did a simple calculations, in past 4 years, I have made about 11k donations.

I wish to 散财 while I can. Did not want my surviving siblings to bear this burden, I shall donate as and when I wish.

Don't forget that there are always people in worse situations, be grateful and do good while u can.