Reunion

18 Nov is his 100th day of passing. I engaged his priest friend to still do some chanting for him.

His elder sis, brother in law

2nd sister and Kuen

Mum, Geoky, Yenn, Bro and May

Yq

Kx, ky

Andy

Gave ang bao to his friend.

Rem it is 3 joss sticks.

Next year qing ming, 7月15， and his chinese bd. After that, is qing ming and death anniversary.

Time flies, and still misses him. Trying to keep myself occupied so that I dont feel so sad. He is free now.

May we meet in our dreams!

20 Nov, had lunch at Chin lee with bro, may, mum, geok and yenn. Treasure those in front of you. Walked to simpang bedok, had soybean and beancurd. After that, took yenn for drive back to bukit panjang. Did it despite being peak hour.

At night, Yenn booked a cruise for 4, in April next year. Ys and me had wanted to bring my mum on cruise.

天意

I had wanted to sell my coe car, but after getting a valuation, I would suffer a 12k loss if I sell now....

Looks like it is heaven's will that I will not be able to sell it.

feeling super stressed with driving

My anxiety of driving is very high. How can i overcome this?

Finally I decided to sell the car. I bought the car purely for LG to drive. Now that he is gone, I tried to drive the car even going for car refresher lessons. But the thought of driving is making me lose sleep, appetite and causing me to worry.

This has been so for past 3 months. Mentally feel very tired. I threw in the white towel and decide to sell, even at a loss.

After I decided to sell my car, i ask LG friend who is a car salesman. He told me to find back the salesman who sold me the car. After contacting M, he quoted me a price that was unacceptable. I would have made a loss of 10k. 

Feeling dejected and angry, and feeling on a death mission, i drove the car out despite going to rain heavily. 

Sure enough, I was caught in a jam twice due to accidents. And very heavy rain. I thought I was dead, but somehow i made it through though i missed my exit. I had to navigate many roads to be back to PIE. 

Finally after a long detour, i made my way home. I brought LG photo with me so that he could watch over me in heaven. I made my way to 427, and went fajar to the ladies. Drove home and sure enough  got caught in the rain. But 老天爷和老公保佑，i made it home safely.

what keeps me alive

Without him around, the house is very quiet. I will leave the TV on so that at least there is some 生气 in the house. 14 more days will be his 100th day passing. It has been 86 days since he left. Life moves on. I need to remind myself why am I still here daily?