1) not to remarry even after he passed on
2) keep praying to his deities until I cant
I realised I cry alot when at home. When outside, I try to control but not at home. It is going to be 10 mths after his passing.
We have our ups and downs, who doesnt. Bad and good memories. I blamed myself for behaving the way I did that morning. I regretted that, it is one of my life regrets. You had 13 years but I didnt cherish it.
Missing him, his jokes, him making nicknames for everyone.
Finding strength to live and move on each day.