不知不觉

Time passed quickly. In past 2 weeks, I had undergone 2 days usher training and 3 working days.

Stirred up some shit amidst. Nonetheless nobody died. I dun have to lose sleep over it.

Also, this usher part time job might end in early Feb. So need to look out for jobs soon.

Through this, I made friends with 3 others. Well having someone to talk to, is good. 

Yesterday after working for 2 days straight, my heel problem exploded. Luckily I went to watson and met a 贵人 。 she recommended me the compression socks by Ebene. I wore it after bathing and went to sleep with it. This morning, my leg pain had gone away. Yay.....that was great. Half my pay had gone to pay for the socks but my foot problem had been around for quite some time. It is a long term investment. Tonight shall wear to sleep after bathing.

Was very restless today. I came out to Bedok area to jalan. But boy, it was hot. I ate lunch at hawker, and had dinner at coffeeshop. Damage 14 bucks.

Tmr my guqin resumes. Maybe I will not continue with it after this package is up. Losing steam in everything.

Jiayou, you can pull through. There was a brown moth in my room, i presume is him. He is always with me.

Next week, will work 2 days usher and my first SO job. Jiayou.

Usher job day 1

I met my colleague from the same agency at 8am, and hit my first issue. My access. Anyway it was very frustrating and in the end have to ask a supervisor to send in email. Not sure if next Thurs and Fri will have problem.

Then, I hit another problem, my walkie talkie was dead in 2 hours. Had to go back and changed, but I have no access to anywhere and I knocked on the office door for 5 to 10mins. Someone came in and I followed.

Then I lost my water bottle.

After lunch, it was better.

Hope I can persist.

Need to go mbs to walk to familiarize myself.

Security modules

When J first jioed me to join security, I never gave it a hard thought. But after I quit, I found it to be close to what I want to do.

3 day weeks

Can stand (I do not like sitting bcos I tend to get sleepy)

So I embarked on my journey to get my security licence. Today I passed my final module test. I got to know some nice ladies who intro me to security job lobangs.

I signed up for my first SO job on 5th Jan. Will try it out tonsee if it suits me.

Tmr will be my first day at ASM. Hope things goes smoothly.

I hope each day is different and I get to have more experiences. One day I can share my stories with LG in heaven. He will be proud of me....

Usher training

This week will be a busy week. 

Mon and Tues are usher training days.

Thurs and Fri are my crowd control days.

Chiong ar.

Will sleep early tonight.

Wed will be my only free day.

Job hunting

Before I quit my cushy job, I knew the shit I would be in. There is a very high chance I will not be able to find a job.

I could adapt and lower my expectations.

So after being idle for close to 5 months, I decided to start looking for part time job. Why so insistent on part time job - because I still want to be able to spend time with my family, and go for gym with my pal.

So this is what I set out to do - if can, work 3 days a week. Max is 4 so that I could go for gym and then after that, go 95.

Technically I can spend time with family on sat and alternate sun.

I applied for at least 5 job, but so far only an usher role one got back to me. I am not hard up for money, I want to try my hands on different jobs.

Security

Usher

Hamper packing

Retail (like close to simei)

I could go gym on every monday, tues. Go visit mum after that. Work wed to fri. Sat is guzheng, sun for free tuition and alternate guqin.

Wish me luck.

Seatrium

Today I finally decided to sell down my seatrium shares.

I have 19k shares. These are free shares from me holding keppel.

Sold 4k shares at 2.02 today.

Next point to sell 2.50, 3.00, 3.50 to sell remaining 15k shares.

大扫除time

I have decided to start my big sweep pre cny. Cny is 29 Jan.

I listed out all the stuff I will clean, which In will tick off.

This is an annual affair which I would undertake.

I always want to go for minimalism, but if the house is too empty, it felt sad. I still think of him everyday but I console myself he is in 天界.

No more pain for him.

So I would take this and next week to slowly clean the house. I might start my usher work soon, so since I am so restless at home, thought it would be great to work some energy doing the chores.

Stuff

The happiness from buying stuff is very short lived. Mere seconds or minutes... It felt as though the moment the item is in your possession, the excitment dies off. This vicious cycle continues.

Ever since my break, end July, I have bought mostly toys (tikam, blind boxes etc) 2 carlo RINO bags, some clothes, 1 Skechers black shoe to prepare for security job.

I just have 1 carlo rino blue bag away because the leather was peeling very badly after 3 weeks of usage. Going back to the first bag to use it.

There is a lot of wastage in this world, I shouldn't add on to it. Should not add on to it.

Cny is next month. 还可以用的东西，就要keep.

I won't be buying clothes - bought 2 shorts and a few tops, so I could wear them at 2025.

I already have a lot of clothes, bags. Not sure how to do a no buy because am tempted with blind boxes. But as my display boxes fill up, I am also now very selective.

I should go for experiences - go walk along kallang river in the morning. Go walk more maybe I should do this tmr.

Grateful

I have stayed home today. Was quite bored so went about doing my routine - youtube, ps5 etc.

Today ate 2 meals - brunch was 2 pizza slices. Dinner was my remaining teoboki, ramen, rice mixture.

Tmr will continue to eat my rice with the vegetarian fried stuff.

Cos am waiting for the usher job interview, so i did not browse any job listings today.

Exercise 50mins. Changed my cupboard plastic cover. Threw a plastic cover sheet away - i still remembered that I bought that roll for 10 bucks prior to hip. LG, i could still remember some of the scenes of hip. We slept in 1 room, u on my bed and i on floor. It was a very dusty period and i recalled waking up early to prep coffee for both of us. We ate bf on the long bench. The rest of the furniture was covered. 

I remembered buying alot of ah nei rice and soft drinks for the workers, on your instruction.

I recalled us taking turns to bathe below at the temp toilets. We had 1 temp toilet to pee at night.

I felt amazed we survived the 10 days. Lg, thanks for the 13 years memories. I will always cherish them.Though I cant recall each and every moments. There were times I could remember. When I recall, i should try writing them down.

Had a funny dream about Lg. He was wearing an oversized underwear, and he stuck his d backwards...haha maybe he was trying to cheer me up. 

I rem him saying he is alive again because of me. Cos i asked him how come he is alive. In my dream, i was trying to hide him from my friends and colleagues.

He is free now. No matter what. You must accumulate more exp so u can tell him about ur adventures.