G in hospital

I visited G at NUH after work. Bought her a piping hot waffle. Will go with mum on wed after swimming.

Yesterday I nearly broke down when sharing my dark days after my hubby passed away. I still reeling from grief, but I must move on. 

Best bag

This year, I bought many bags and some have been given away.

I bought carlo rino bag and a braun buffel crossbody for my birthday. I bought a peirre cardini men bag during genting trip, and earlier a uniqlo small tote bag.

Guess what? I ended up using my uniqlo bag most of the time. It is very fuss free, and though small, it can hold more stuff. 

Now it is my main bag,my peirre cardini is my work bag and if i need act atas, i will use my braun buffel bag.

Very happy my friend J recommended the tote bag to me, it is really good.

Now i dun feel like biying anything because I already got my best bag.

Jewel family treat

Yesterday Y was free. We all decide we were going jewel to eat Godiva Labubu ice cream (2nd version). Just an excuse to get my mum out of the house.

We grabbed to T3, had a nice chinese meal at 太子 and then the bill came up to 98. I wanted to gift a disney cruise luggage to a certis friend. Y also got 5 free carnival tokens

G got me an ehor yay. Then I bought a luggage. Will gift to my friend on coming wed. 

Next we went jewel to eat the godiva ice cream. Mum and G wanna drink luckin coffee so me and Y made our way to Godiva. woah the q was long. The ice cream costs 14.50.

We each bought one and made a short video on it. Then we made our way to luckin. Then I went with G to walk around. We went to see all the toy shops, didnt buy anything. Then Y went to walk alone after we came back luckin. She ended up with a Lulu pig burger blindbox. 

We lazed around then made our way to mamamia to have early dinner. Then the bill was above 60, G wanted a dale cushion so she bought it. Then we made our way home.

I was feeling the coffee withdrawal symptoms so din have much energy. Quickly made myself a hot kopi when home

Capitaland Invest

Today I bought 20k more shares at 2.65/share. 

Going to buy another 20k shares when price dropped. Look like the US markets are quite jittery.

With 40k, i would have reinvested Papa monies into Capitaland. Did not want to keep too much cash inside bank accounts due to the rising scams. Luckily got the money lock to put my mind at ease.

On hand have 270k, so if i minus 107k, i would still have 163k, of which 30k is emergency funds. 133k for OCBC shares.

Bugis sides

Yesterday on a whim, decided to meet with G to go Bugis plus eat the Sides restaurant.

I went early because was feeling quite bored at home. I walked around, mainly browsing uniqlo for cheap buys. Came out empty handed. 

Then it was nearly dinner time and the restaurant was filling up quickly. I went and took a seat. Then ordered a nice salted caramel milkshake that cost 8 bucks.

Then when G came, we had tenders and wedge fries and onion ring. Whoa the tenders are very juicy and tender, was very surprised.

After a heavy meal, G wanted to walk around. There was a mofusa popup and we browsed around. The prices were eye droppingly expensive. A small doll costs 60, a cup 70. 买不下。

We saw a neoprint machine so we decided to take 1, cost us 8 bucks but it was something we last did decades ago. Had some fun. The filter made us look so nice haha but unrecognisable.

Next, we went to kimoj, saw some jewellery. G wanted a earring, while i was looking around for thick bracelet and necklace. I found what I like, then G got herself another earring. Buy 3 get 1 free. So the last time bought jewellery was at genting 2 years ago, my 鹤笑九天 set. I like my new bracelet, going to wear them until am sick of them haha.

Sold more Singtel

I sold almost half of my Singtel stake.

Reason being it hit the price I set.

20k at 4.35

10k at 4.70

With the marketsnso volatile and uncertain, uncertain when the global recession would start crashing the stock markets. There is a weird phenomenon where the economies are not doing well but the stock market is all time high. This smells like FOMO, greed and euphoria.

When people get greedy, we need be fearful. So when people are buying stocks, I started selling my stocks.

I made almost 150k profits alone this year. Will continue to buy into capitaland invest.

Holding onto 250k warchest. Aiming for OCBC shares but the price still too high.

Some stocks to consider when the price is right.

OCBC

Keppel (if drop to 5)

Har paw if drop to 7,8

UOL if drop to 5

Singtel if drop to 2 plus

I am feeling very gloomy, is it because I am playing lies of P. I shall stop playing today.

Feel like in a shopping mood but dunno what to buy. Din wan to buy stuff that I would not use and give away. 

Recently bought some clothes but end up giving them away. Bought a new bag but not nice to use. Bought a clothes rack, intensed to use it for drying my towels and bedsheets or blanket.

Though I am flushed with cash, I dunno how to be happy. I feel like doing nothing but doing nothing makes me ruminate and become more gloomy.

I could not eat as much as I like. I have nobody to share my joys.

Night before I dreamt of YS, he was in a room and I asked him if he will be back. He said no. Last night had a nightmare, dreamt he was stabbed/burnt and he was dying in front of my eyes and the paramedics could not help him. I was so sad and i woke up, it was just a dream. He died of a heart attack, remember this.

Will I see him when my time is up. Yea!!

FIRE to what?

I always wanted to FIRE so I can rest and spend time with my hubby. But before I achieved it, he passed away.

Two years after his death, I achieved what I always wanted but it was bittersweet. 

I quit my cushy job and tang ping 3 months before I got too restless again. Yes, I have time but nobody to do the things with. I did some on my own but not alot.

I read blogs of people accumulating 1mil then 2mil then aiming 3mil. To what ends, if it comes at not much more effort, I would applaud that but if it comes from putting off more years of enjoyment then I wouldnt do that. Cos life is short, alot of things are out of our control. 

As I reflect on myself, what I have now, a part time job, almost paid off hdb, healthy body, and a 580k portfoilio that gives me some dividends, I am grateful. There is nothing more to aim for. Though I still hanker for some home appliances that could better my life or some clothings/bags (nothing designer), I dont have something. Maybe this is what 平常心 means, when there is no wants or needs.

Mammogram Year 2

I just got a clean bill from my mammagram. This was my 2nd one.

Last year CGH detected anomalies and I did like 2 mammogram, 2 rounds of ultrasound. Then even went for the biosy, luckily I claimed from Pru.

Now still got kidney, anemia and possibly womb. Dont fell well sometimes down there. 

Hope all is well.