Orchard road

I slow jogged 7km. Started at 9.30am, lasted till 11am. Can I do this daily after my B.FIRE.

Had sardine puff for lunch.

Practised guqin and erhu 2pm plus.

Collected specs and bought 2 shorts - kena complained my shorts too lousy.

Changed into 1 before Orchard far east. I realised I dunno where to go. Dont want to buy anything already cos spent 168 + 50 today. Later eating sushi bar.

This will be a luxury come nex t year. YOLO. 

Goals

It has been 15 mths, still missed him.

I have achieved my financial goal that I set for myself.

What do I want to do when I resign next year June?

I thought of going into healthcare...am not sure at 41, would I be able to handle the physical aspects.

Ideal life is to be free, free to do whatever I want. But sadly I dont know what I want anymore.

Spend time with mum, sisters - go marketing, chitchat. I dont have the energy to do this on daily basis.

Go temple - i like the smell of incense maybe I can walk to 阿公庙to pray. 

Explore Bedok area by bus and foot.

Go exercise daily.

Learn a new thing everyday

Back from HK trip

Came back from HK trip with my colleagues, luckily did not have arguments during the trip.

It was enjoyable because I visited new places.

This sparked my thoughts - should I take a solo trip to HK next year at Cheung Chau Island to stay for 4 or 5 days.

I believed it is doable. If not, I can book a place at Mong Kok.

See how - if mum is keen, I can bring her to Cheung Chau.

Insomia

Yesterday had a bout of insomia. Slept at 11pm, woke up 1am plus.

Tossed and turned. Only went back to sleep 3am - after turning aircon to lower temp and listening to water waves.

Mind was thinking about work... stressed. When can it end?

What can I learn from this? Why am I still here...

What will I do when I am semi retired come next year?

I told my boss about my plan to tender in Jun-24. She asked me to consider taking no-pay leave for 6 months (then decide after that), or part-time (may have some chance).

Jotting down my thoughts - I didn't want to take a 6-mth no pay leave because firstly it means the team is short of 1 person. Secondly, I am not sure if I would even come back after 6-mths. My battery is dead - have a bad fatigue on Friday and took a morning leave. 

My fatigue - can't sleep even though I used aircon. The last few nights were bad. Kept relying on coffee to perk me awake. But it reached a point where no amount of coffee could do the job.

Decided to try jogging - had been going to jog 2x a week. Chanced across slow jogging - will try to see if this is easier for me.

Going to HK with colleagues this coming weekend. Hopefully can rest. 

Was writing and totally missed my point. 

I will go

1) volunteer (start small)

2) continue with my erhu and guqin lessons

3) jog and go fighting with J (2-3x a week)

4) aim to cook at least a few times a week (not a fan of cooking)

5) take bus ride (I enjoy taking long bus rides so I can daydream)

6) continue to learn jap

7) after 6 months - do part-time jobs

8) spend more time with mum, G, Y

9) spend time with friends

10) walk my dogs (once a day) - 1hr

11) sleep