Feel very restless

This week, I can't focus at work nor on anything. I think i really need to do a digital detox.... but how.

If i dont watch tv, i will be surfing or shopping online. 

Need go out and walk. Tmr bathe dogs and bring them out.

Bought CDL

Sold my F&N to buy 2000 shares of CDL.

Sold F&N at a loss 4.3k. Will breakevem should CDL go to 7.50.

Should I begin no spend challenge starting July

I realised i have a shopping addiction of some sorts. I would always be thinming what is next. Just like how I was thinking of buying the xiaomi pad for 1 mth, after I bought the pad, i found myself thinking of phone.....

Yesterday went and bought 2 pieces of clothing.

If this goes on, i wont be able to barista fire. I guess it is because i am feeling very empty everyday.

Even with the pad, with the markers, with the clothing, my heart had a big void that my hubby left behind...

This void cant be filled and the ever feeling of meaninglessness in life. 

I just have to accept this void and embrace it.

After my resignation, i will try to track all my expenses and see if they would go down. Trying to keep within 2k a month.

Jewel

Today Yun Qing came to 拜年, while talking, realized she wanted an armchair. Just happened that recently I bought 2 armchairs and 1 foldable one through Taobao (G's colleague). Then I decided to give her my extra one because initially bought two so that I could throw away my sofa. But after some thoughts, I decided to keep my sofa. So the extra armchair was taking up a lot of space in my room

So instead she paid me 30 (but I took 20)  for it. Yay, freed up some space in my room. Very grateful.

After I helped her take the chair to her car, I went for my appt at polyclinic. Finally I am discharged and need not take any more supplements (I had a lot from the previous round which I would slowly take after my period).

Had a simple lunch at 95 then went off with G to temple (ah gong miao at Bedok). Then tai yang gong. Donated 1 tile at 128 (G paid 50) as ah gong miao is relocating.

Decided to go jewel as I have not been to there. First thing we went to tikam and got our self each an old fashioned digital watch. It was very nostalgic and reminded us of our younger self. It was only 5 bucks. Wore it immediately.

Next went to try luckin coffee, first drink was 99cents. We bought 2 caramel macchiato and it was smooth for 7.80. then we walked one round and decided to eat Korean fried chix. We got one extra drumstick yay. Feeling full and thristy, we bought a drink at ntuc finest. Went home taking the mrt, total damage was 45. 

Back at Bedok mall, went to kenzo and bought 2 - a culotte and a dress. Total damage 54.

G bought 3 dresses at yuer for 39. If the culotte is good, will consider buying a few more.

I am writing this down so that I do not forget my loved ones. 

What if

What if I sell my seatrium shares, and invest whatever into ocbc, would it pay me enuff dividends?

100k into ocbc = 7500 shares at 0.80 is approx 500 per month

Sold F&N at a loss

I sold my F&N shares today at a loss of 4.3k. Bought this in Jul 21, held for 3 years....

Only consolation is i held 3 years, so div received were about 1.2k. Still a loss of 2.1k... A q 精神。

Intend to use the 10.6k to buy citi devt/ocbc.

Armchair

My dreams were to sit in armchair and la kopi, on a balcony. This was quite reminisent of my grandma house which had a balcony.

I remembered drawing myself sitting on am armchair on a balcony, overseeing greenery.

If i had ordered for the msia style armchair that I were accustomed to, it would cause me 256 bucks for 2 armchairs. 

With the help of my sister's colleague, i ordered 2 armchairs and 1 chair thru taobao. Total damage 112 bucks. I save 144 over bucks.

Initially my plan was to throw away my sofa but after thinking, i realised I still needed the sofa when i need to fold clothes etc. Phew didnt throw away on impulse. Had a tendency to throw away things very readily.

Now most times, i sit in my armchair in my living room to watch tv. I fulfilled my dream somewhat. 

Sunday

What I did today;

A) bathed dogs and brought them out to dry off :)

B) swept and mopped floor

C) practised my guqin 

D) ate my red/green bean soup lunch

E) went for guqin class 2.45pm

F) saw the old man and gave him an ang bao (he reminded me of ys in some way)

G) photocopied score to cut and stick (need to sing and play)

H) dabaoed dinner (Korea pork rice)

I) fed the last Mandarin orange to dogs

J) ran 6km with both knee guards

K) continued to binge watch YouTube

Wrote blog

Learn to take things slowly and discover the beauty.

While running, there were certain stretches where I was alone, both side lined with trees and the street lamps. Today evening sky had a bagua shape - I would imagine ys is there in heaven watching over me as I ran. Quite windy also. Very good for running.

I started my red, green bean soup diet after coming back from ipoh. Because I got a rude shock when I saw my weight 71kg on 29 Jan.

I do not remember eating a lot of food during the trip but my weight keep ballooning. Then I remembered in 2008 after I came back from my first overseas trip from Taiwan, my weight ballooned to 64,65kg. I then ate green bean soup with coffee for lunch at my sme job. Went swimming 3 times a week and lost weight back to 59kg.

Desperate, I decided to give it a try. Firstly, it saves me 7 bucks a day, then it provides me a source of proteins to build muscles, and lastly it is rich in iron. So this is my third week in, I replaced my dinner with the soup. This will be a permanent thing until my weight is 60kg haha in my dreams.

Will weigh in on every Monday morning. Last week was 68.6kg. 

My budget after quitting (first six months)

Fixed expenses

Food 15*30=450

Electricity 50

Conservancy charges 80

Water and gas 50

Insurance 550

Internet, HP 130

Travel 50

Doggies 100

Gym 130

365 donation 70

Groceries 100

Subtotal 1,760 (a)

Flexible

Erhu, guzheng 130

Guqin 85*4=340

Shopping 100

Subtotal 570 (b)

Grand total (a) + (b) = $2,330

My estimated dividends $1,680

Shortfall = $650 (to cover using savings for first six months)

Find a part time job

Xiaomi pad

I had been thinking of getting a pad for myself for quite some time. One reason was because of my long sightedness. I cried a lot after LG passed away, my eyes had degenerated.

Most times I can't see the text on my phone. 

Yesterday I made up my mind to buy one. And life is short. I will use it to record my guqin videos and read ebooks. Played with Xiaomi pad 6 at the Xiaomi store at Bedok mall. There was a lady that was eyeing me the whole while. I thought she was keen to serve me. So when I finally said I wanna buy the pad, she then told me all are sold out island wide. 

For some reason, I was quite pissed. There I was, playing with it for a good 15mins under her nose. And she didn't bother to tell me....I just walked away lor since she obviously had no customer service to begin with.

Anyway thought my intention to buy a pad, would diminish but hor I was wrong. Went googled for other pads, only to realize Xiaomi was one of the chespest. Oppo is 799, Samsung >1000. Then while I was working today, I had a relevation - why not try best denki to see if it sells Xiaomi pad. Lo and behold, they did and I bought the only Xiaomi pad 6. I am using it to type this blog while we speak. Feeling very happy with my purpose.

Chu San

Had a busy morning - the usual bathe, feed dogs, sweep and mop floor.

Could not bring myself to go record guqin. Made a reminder to invest my cpf to buy 2000 shares of city devt.

What do I really want to do/pursue?

I bored myself with watching mukbangs, luxury bags videos. But how long could this engage me?

Ran 6km yesterday. 

Not sure what to do, maybe I take a walk around bedok or tampines.