I don't have to do anything

Past few days had been quite uneventful. Abit sian at home watching youtubes. Need to spruce up my life abit. Next few days will be working 5hours mostly a day. Happy to have an excuse to go out. Getting lazy especially after coming back from Taipei trip.

After I got my new bag

After I got my braun buffel bag, I decided to gift or sell away my old bags.

I sold my small beige carlo rino bag for 20 bucks. Gift away my skecher sling bag (foc from skecher runs) and my carlo rino grey birthday bag that I bought for 90plus dollars. 

1 in, 3 out. The remaining bags are still being used as I am mostly using them on my work days.

Ys

These 2 nights, had dreamt of my hubby. The first night he came with me to a place with many kittens, then he ended up throwing some food to the cats.

Last night, I was visiting somebody's place then one person said there were some 法宝扇子 that my hubby 开光 before. Then suddenly the scene changed and I was walking with Ys, him in a yellow top. Then we were going around and taking some statue to kowtow to the temples then suddenly he collapsed and I tried to do CPR on him and .... My dreams mostly ended on this note. Maybe in my mind, I always think he could have survive if I had given him CPR correctly that day. 

Till date, I always teared when thinking of this, it would be my regret that I would hod on till the end of my life. Traumatized ... even after 3 years.

永远无法释怀的。

I could only try to occupy myself with work.

Taipei with J

17 Jun to 21 Jun

On impulse, we decided to go for a short trip to Taipei, J mainly to go to Mayday exhibition and stayreal merchandise. 

On 17 Jun, we met 11pm at T1, the flight was 1am via SCOOT.

We reached Taipei, 6am and after taking an express mrt, we reached out hotel 9am after a short break at 7-11 at the airport. We checked in and then we went out for a yong he dou Jiang breakfast. Yummy.

Then we went to Mayday exhibition, J couldn't help her friends get the baseball tee. Then after 2 rounds, and a short exhibition, we went lalaport. The whole mall was very high end, we ended up eating lunch at a jap burger shop. After that, we went back to ximending, and shopped around.

2nd day, we had breakfast at a luroufan shop, ate a hearty meal the we set off for stayreal. J went to q while I walked around nearby, chanced upon Cheng pin and spent 3 hours there. Brought some wuliao stuff for my mum, sisters. Then went back to meet J. 

We had a good lunch at a gardenly restaurant.

Then we headed back. Shopped a bit around ximending as J wanted to get the passport chop.

Third day, we went to eat breakfast by buying at 7-11, I had a very nice mayouji noodle. Then we set off for the textile lane, bought my Taiwan LV bag hahah so auntie. Then we just ate fresh sashimi at a market. Then we headed to the underground mall. I wanted a sweater. 

After some shopping, J bought a bag while we decided to go back to the converse short. Wanted to try on a sweater, ended up with another sweater as the one I liked, looked v funny as it seems to emphasize my breasts....

Bought the bomber style, luckily I bought because the airport and the flight was very cold. I managed to fall asleep on the plane. So tired

Reached sg early, asked J to go home while I wait for my sis and mum. We ate mac and drank luckin, to wait for popmart to open. We then bought a chakra, got a lei. Haha then at 11am, I went to snatch energy bubu turned out no need to snatch as it was available whole day.....

This concluded my first short trip with J. It was memorable as I just wanted to get away and eat.

Life after FIRE

Started the day watching a youtube video of a lady talking about pife after FIRE.

This resonated with me abit.

I always thought I would live happily ever aafter when I reach my FIRE number 500k.

I thought I could then spend more time with hubby, slow down and relax. My hubby passed away before I could reach FIRE. All my planning had gone largely to waste.

Even though I managed to reach FIRE 2 years after his death, there is nobody to share my joy, share my life. 

Then before I quit my job, i wrote down all the stuff I wanted to do, and I largely have not done much.

Most of my days are spent playing PS5, go out jalan with my sister, working 2 to 3 days a week just to keep me on my toes. I wanted to go back to jogging but weather too hot. Will continue my erhu and guzheng lessons. Take things ez as there is nothing I wish to do.

Tooth implant

Today did a 2nd tooth implant. Damage 1950 MA plus 170 GST cash. Three months later, will do the tooth moulding. The tooth will cost 1100, need do another 11 days worth of work haha. 

DBZ chapter

In Oct 2024, I dug out my DBZ and sailor moon cards and decided to sell them away. I have kept these cards for over 30 years.

Throw them away, heart pain. Keep them, no more feeling.

So after 9 months, I finally sold all my DBZ cards. Earlier have already sold my sailor moon ones.

This ended a three decade old hobby. Haha never could have imagined that there are people who are still willing to pay for the golden cards.

Now am into figurines. 2D to 3D.

Will I live another three decades? Likely not.

Who am I living here for? For now, mum and 2 doggies. Xiaobai is sick, she might not have long. Need to be mentally prepared. Feed her 10% more. Still having diarrhea so don't dare feed too much else like last week, she LS the whole toilet down. This morning also, LS...

Xiaobai, if she passes, I believe she will join hubby in the afterworld.

FIRE - very lean FIRE

I remembered I thought my dividends could cover my expenses and I planned a year b4 i quit my cushy job. The dividends did until my expenses shot up due to certain expenses - dental, gaming, short vacation trips.

These always made my supposedly 1800 monthly expenses shoot up to 2500, additional 700.

So in Dec I thought I would just get a part time job that works 3 days a week and pays me 800, so I have 2800 a month with some buffer.

Fast forward 7 months, I have done it. I have 3 side jobs. Certis, usher and now events.

Actually who am i leaving my estate to. I cannot possibly spend 650k.

I should relax and enjoy my money more. Donate more while I am alive.

Meetup with wj

Today I jioed my longtime sec school friend out to lunch. She had just came back from Spain after 8 months of studying. We met at chinatown hawker centre, ate the 红油抄手，锅贴，  and some 米糕。 It was nice and it was the Michelin star one. Then I went to buy kopi from the 五十年代 which won 2024 Michelin. Hmmm

As we got hotter, we decided to jalan Abit then we drank the 杨枝甘露 from a stall near the junction to chinatown point. Then we went to eat some dessert at Hiroshi coffee.

Wj may be staying in Spain for another 4 years for her PhD. We talked a lot. Anyway for me, told her studying is out for me. I will just do manual jobs to while my time away. Who knows how long I have left.

Today sold my cpf Singtel shares. Locking in profits to prepare for the full redemption in March 2026.

Life is short, are there anything you wish to do? The answer is a no. I have no regrets already. I would have been gone age 26. As hubby had said, I was 'eating' or leaning on him, to keep me alive. I have been living on borrowed time for 16 years, what more can I ask except for a fast death.

Treated mum to atas restaurant

Today brought my mum to crown plaza hotel to meet her friend from Australia.

Her friend brought her milk powder and medicines. Waited 45min then I went to meet my coll at jewel to chat. Then as my mum was coughing, suggested for her to eat lunch at the atas italian. Had risotto and sphageti and 2 coffee. Mum enjoyed the risotto while i ate the sphageti.

After lunch, went straight home and i left for my home

Work

For the past 1 week, I have worked at indoor stadium for 3 days. Omg my first day was inside and I had aircon and toilet whole day at my side.

For yesterday and today, I was outside and it was so so so so hot. It was as bad as national stadium. However time flies because I always have something to do. Breaks were more frequent.

I thought I would faint one day but I didnt. It was so hot and I was wearing 2 layers. Luckily for breaks, I could go and enjoy some aircon to cool down. Phew today was a shorter day. Earned another 300.