Ys

These 2 nights, had dreamt of my hubby. The first night he came with me to a place with many kittens, then he ended up throwing some food to the cats.

Last night, I was visiting somebody's place then one person said there were some 法宝扇子 that my hubby 开光 before. Then suddenly the scene changed and I was walking with Ys, him in a yellow top. Then we were going around and taking some statue to kowtow to the temples then suddenly he collapsed and I tried to do CPR on him and .... My dreams mostly ended on this note. Maybe in my mind, I always think he could have survive if I had given him CPR correctly that day. 

Till date, I always teared when thinking of this, it would be my regret that I would hod on till the end of my life. Traumatized ... even after 3 years.

永远无法释怀的。

I could only try to occupy myself with work.