A flicker of xiaobai

This morning, when I woke up at 6am plus. When I switched on my kitchen light, in that nanosecond, I saw xiaobai near my left feet. Lily was on my right. Is it my imagination? Is she with hubby in heaven?

1 Jan 2026 networth

Start of the year, I only wish for health for myself and family. Rest is not critical.

I calculated my net worth, 930k this year. If add in my stock market gain, my net worth is 1130k, I am a millionaire but so what, I continue to live simply, occasionally indulging in some trips, some concerts, some toys.

As I looked back in the year 2025, I could still remember some stuff that happened. I fell sick and lost a tooth in Feb.

I attended 2 concerts, went to Penang twice, genting once.

I reminisce about the time I spent new year eve with YS, life is 无常。 I need to cherish now.

Some major milestone this year, would be March when I will initiate to pay off my hdb bank loan. The house is truly ours.

After my contract is up in August, I will go look for a Uniqlo part time job.

End of 2025

In a few days, 2025 will come to an end. LG, I will continue to miss you but I will move forward.

Past few weeks were hectic due to erhu rehearsals. The next few weeks would also be busy as I have doc appt, vet appt. 

Tmr gg for dim sum buffet with family. Sun gg to walk with wj, sm. Wed gg to walk with wj and group.

Tmr is erhu performance

Been burning my weekends for erhu rehearsals. Tmr is finally the performance. Can finally rest over weekends liao. Performance at sota.

Ended AvSO

I still remembered April going to Bukit Timah area for the training. What happened on the examination day etc.

Fast forward today, I tendered my resignation.

Why? I remembered I was quite excited to work at this job. But months into the job, I started to feel the dread. It worsened each time I went to work. 

The dread of complaints, scolding from customers or even team leader etc made me fear going to work. I even tio IBS once when I worked. I thought I wont make it that day but I managed somehow.

The dread would start days before my shift. It didn't lessen.

This job made me realised how strenuous these jobs are. I developed a new kind of admiration for the workers and I truly pei Fu those seniors doing this job. But I cant handle it.

I last worked in sept for 1 day. I couldnt bring myself to work anymore.

Finally this came to a stop.

I will focus on my current stat board job and occasional concert job. Being fatigued for quite a while.

After next year, I would try Uniqlo. Maybe need to put on makeup.

Beer Sake fest

This post was published late.

On 8 Nov,nme and Y went to a standing sake free flow event, which cost 52.

We met at bedok interchange and it was a very hot day. We waited near 6pm and we got our wristband, a tasting glass and off we began.

We started eating first because it would be easy to get drunk in empty stomach. I was interested in drinking yuzu saki only. So started on that, went around drinking mostly yuzu flavour. I think I have close to 20 taste of sake including 1 beer. I started to get light headed and a whozzy feeling in my head. So I stopped. 

Y was mostly eating. I was pretty full. She had more.

There was some saki that tasted nice but in the end, I realized I like some sweetness and alcohol taste so I decided to buy a yuzu flavor and a ume flavor. Nice to drink on a cold night. Maybe Y was influenced by me, she decided to buy 2 cheaper yuzu sake for mum and G to try too. Spent 100 bucks but felt happy doing it.

Probably this is what people meant by going for experience instead of keep buying stuff. Something that I looked forward to. Later gg to T3 to meet a vietnam co worker. 

答谢

Today we have our 3rd da xie at my place. Together with Yun Qing and my family, this was the third year since my hubby death.

Today I did not cry, I did the previous rounds but this year I was feeling neutral. Shed tears previously when I remembered the scenes of our da ri zi, LG would pray and we standby in his office. The deities would 上他的身。

Maybe I felt that he never left us. He would be looking over us from heavens. Yun Qing got a grandson, happy for her. Reminded of our family which would 断在这一带。

Hope we all remain healthy and can continue this tradition. Hope we didn't make too many mistakes.

FIRE

My dividends received this year was 24k or so. Equated to 2K a month. My expenses usually hover close to 3k.

My temp job back at my stat board, pays me 2k (take home) so all in all, I have 1k savings.

My temp job will likely end next year Aug when things are more stable. So my plan after that was to try get a part time job at uniqlo. I am wearing mostly uniqlo clothings.