Obsessed

As I started to count down the weeks left in my job, I found myself pouring over my finances from a weekly look, to daily. Also because I have time on hand. 

I bought 2 more lots of OCBC at 14.36 a share. Actually I was a little apprehensive because I had been wanting to buy OCBC in march, but I didn't and the price shot up from 13++ to 14++. Missed my chance so instead of waiting longer, decided to take the plunge.

I had been obsessing about the dividends - calculating whether my dividends could cover my monthly expenses of 1800 a month. If my stocks paid out the same dividends as last year, it would. But because they didn't, and I believe the economy might crumble, I decided to buy OCBC to fill this gap.

Need another 2 more lots of OCBC, will target to buy in Aug.

他

昨晚，我梦见老公，和Mary cheong (那时她走的时候，老公说她是去了佛界）来探望巫婆（我妈）.他们谈话谈的很开心。希望这不代表些什么，可能他们两个最近有来看看她。

过后，我梦见祖师他上了一个印度青年身上，然后他告诉我（用华语），我老公已经修炼到他们（大神）一半的功夫。过后，他就离开了。

然后我又梦见男人婆（我姐）要带我去一个地方玩。我就赶紧把家里（一个陌生的家🏠，很像poly quarters但又不是，房间不像）的窗户关起来。看到莉莉小白在家里喝着水。

可能祖师是要我安心，他在一个很好的地方。自己要努力活着。总有一天会再见面。我自己也要修身，修心。才能有这么一天。要不然，我何德何能，到天界见到他呢。

Popmart

Today went to Joo chiat guan yin temple with Geoky. She wanted to ask if she should quit her job. The qian told her to stay put. She had some issues at work. 

After we gave our thanks, hopped back bus 33 to kembagan mrt then to pay lebar.

We ate lunch at Carl jr, yakiniku pork burger. The onion fries were good. 

Walked around to digest the food, then came across a popmart machine. Geoky decided to go for the Mickey mouse one while I went for the Chinese instrument one. Well I got a blue haired gal. Not bad looking. 15.90 each.

Then we went popular cos I want to buy some markers. Then she saw got some discounted china popmart. She decided to buy 1 and she got the teapot one. 

Then we went home cos it was one plus and we had to buy lunch back for mum. Today is mother's day so bought her chix rice and soya pudding.

Went home. Initially wanted to go run, but my period suddenly got some pain. And the skies were cloudy. So I drew a tiger xiaobai and going to play my erhu later.

Now watching YouTube 

Ocbc

Loading up more OCBC. Mainly for the dividends aspects.

After my FD matures, will buy another 2 lots.

Bought vaccuum

After dabao-ed lunch for the 3 of us, i went bedok mall xiaomi shop to see if can buy a vaccuum for mum.

It is something i thought of last year, to buy for mum's birthday. But geoky said giving a vaccuum as birthday gift is like insulting. So i dropped the idea, bought a xiaomi pad 2023.

So since I got nothing better to do, i decided to go and see the vaccuum at xiaomi.

The G9, G10 series is very bulky - not easy to handle for short person. My mum is shorter than me. So the oic recommended the 229 one which is shorter, and simpler in terms of its function. 

After charging 2 hr, G used it. Hope it come in useful for them.

The suction is not bad. Easy to swing around.

Marc jacob

Hmm after using it for close to 1 mth, i finally found a con to it. The handles of the bag stays upright, so when wearing cross body, the handle will rub against my arms. So the positions are abit awkward. No issue if used as shoulder bag cos i hang it quite long. Hmm luckily i did not go buy a lv onthego which cost 4-5k. Nonetheless still going to use the bag - i like structured bags.

No more

No more of the following

1) Bags - I just bought a 280sgd Marc Jacob tote bag. Other than this, I already have a work bag, a grey cat backpack (previously my workbag), banana bag (birthday gift from Geoky)which I used for my Japan trip, a shoulder bag (which I think I will give away), and a small men messenger bag which is small and slick. I don't need any more bag, some more my colleague gave me a bulburry bag which I hadn't used yet.

2) shoes - I have skecher running shoes (very good for jogging), a skecher Sandler which is very good for travel, a Skechers work shoe, 2 Melissa shoes for work. One skechers slipper - the best slippers I had.

3) hats

4) clothes - I have enough to last me for a long time already. Dun need any more since going to resign soon

5) No more bowls, cups, water bottles - have enough

Discharged

Today spent 2hr travelling time to go kkh from Bedok. Another 1.5hr to come home as i managed to catch the shuttle bus to Bugis. Finally discharged case from kkh, if i encounter future issues, can always go back kkh within 2 years.

Managed to find a bright orangy shirt for Lg. Bought another 2 pieces. Next time just go bedok to buy. 

I got triggered by woke salaryman newest post about a man over inflating his life only to lose his job.

This triggered me cos i thought back to 2020 when covid happens. We downgraded our house from 5 room hdb to a 4 room hdb. Actually i just casually tell him that to look for a higher floor one so cockroach incident. We never thought to upgrade our dwelling because i think i was the only sole breadwinner, and we bought bedok accidentally. I remembered that time where I had to hug lily and out her on my lap as people come and view our flat. It was 1442sqft. 

I still have a 263k housing loan outstanding. Come july, i would have resigned. My cpf would be able to pay for the loan. I intend to use cpf to pay for my 1.5% interest rate loan for another 2 years until 2026.

After that, have to see if it make sense to refinance but with no income, i doubt i could get my house refinanced. Have to see if the interest rates are high. If it is high, likely i just had to sell my singtel shares and pay off the outstanding ~240k using cpf and some cash (maybe from my seatrium).

I must learn to be content with what I have. A roof over my head for me and doggies. He can come visit me in dreams.

Live a simple life and go without a trace.

Going to declutter stuff. Mainly his remaining clothes and my wedding dress. I think it is time to let go.

Thinking of letting go of the stools and some wooden chairs that made it very hard to enter the storeroom.