I have even went to look at the job websites to see what kind of job I may want to pursue.
Each time I did this, a lot of negative thoughts would drown me. Why? I looked at the job description, I felt like I did not possess any of the skills that employers are looking for. Data science, computing, etc.
I also know myself, i have tried insurance (1yr), writing (2 yr), call centre (0.5yr) and current job (11yr+). I can't sell myself.
So each time after browsing the jobs, feeling very dejected, I would reflect what is so bad about my current job.
Direct boss is good, colleagues are good. Has upcoming major projects that would need me to do till 2023. Having the ability to work from home. Able to afford my current lifestyle because of my pay. Staff is so so.
Compared to my 11+ years, this year is not the worst. I had worse years in 2015, 2017, 2018 and last year. I was very close to throwing my resignation letter, but I pulled back because I do not want to repeat the mistake I made when I resigned in 2007 amid the financial crisis. Now we are in post pandemic times and a looming depression ahead.
Even if i could find a new job, i may not find the good people, colleagues i have.
One reason I felt like quitting, is the dread I felt towards my work. Nothing excites me and I find myself dragging myself to work. It also affected my personal life as I cant stop thinking or worrying about my work. It is either my job or my sanity.
I will give myself another 2 years, meanyime I will try to learn new skills.
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