Ever since I seriously thought of quitting, I wanted to pick up reading. I saw somewhere reading can help with anxiety.
This is my 2nd non fiction book, there was one that I completed earlier. Rest wereainly half finished attempts.
This book reasonate me as I could feel some commonalities - being fat, dressing poorly, shopping addiction, loss (author 's being her parents divorce while mine my hubby's passing). She coped by turning on her tv every waking moment - and here I was, thinking I was the only one doing it.
I turned on my tv the moment I wake up, or come back home. I cannot tolerate no noise. for the past two years, I slept with my HP on meaning I would watch YouTube until I fell asleep. Until now, I still do this. It helps me get back to sleep. Have trouble sleeping after his death.
There were times I coaxed myself to sleep saying I will meet him in my dreams. I did.
I also listen to Buddhist chants when I feel very bad. The music coaxed or sooths me. Feel calmer everytime.
I would have to go on a shopping ban and tv ban someday. Till now, I guess my goal is to figure out whether my 1.8k budget works or not.
Time to sleep. 10 more working days and I am on my 6 month career break.
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