This Thurs is my surgery, hope I can do it. I just want to get it done and over with as it was rescheduled from 6 Dec due to me having a flu then.
After my surgery, then I can make plans on how to live my life forward - do i quit my job. What volunteer work will I do. What erhu lesson to take etc.
I have no new year resolution. Taking a day at a time. Without LG, I do not know why I am working for. For the past 13 years, my goal is to alway retire FIRE so that I can choose not to work.
There were plans to travel to HK, Msia etc but sadly he is no longer around.
When alone at home, having plenty of time to burn, I feel very sad because I do not know how to chart my life ahead. What do I want to do - I want to do nothing because nothing matters.
I can only hope to dream of him every night. Maybe when I recover, I go more often to 95 - make it weekly. Spend more time with mum, geoky and yenn - we only have today.
Yesterday went 95 to have a karaoke session with Geoky. Mum made pasta and I have pasta for both lunch and dinner.
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