He won't be able to rest in peace as long as I am still in this sorrowful state.
I still rem how I spent last bday last year. I went to buy myself 2 pcs of cake from starbucks and dabao home.
I had my fair share of unhappy moments year 2020, I wanted to eat with him at a atas chinese restaurant. He went to jio my sis and mum. Then we drove there... but there was no carpark space. In the end, he dropped us off and went off.
Haiz I felt very sad then becos everytime I wanted something, the results were diasterous. I felt sad and lonely because other couples celebrate their birthdays but not us. That was why i decided to just go buy 2 cakes i want to eat on 2022. So this shall be the way forward. If I want something, I do it alone. Gave up asking him out to try new things.
I guess, this is life. Many things have happened, to led me to the conclusion tt I cant be happy with anything.
When I got promoted last year, he got hospitalised. I couldnt even give him a treat. Then when he was getting better tt we were thinking of doing da ri zi, then he passed away in Aug. How else could I think...
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