Your life is in your hands

I had a dream during my japan trip, of my mum passing on. This is th 2nd time I had such a dream, since ys passing on. Though i remembered ys telling me dreaming of someone dying, means that person will live for long but....yesterday mum mentioned about her old cactus dying (having lived 29 years) and she replanted the offsprings. Then she said she ikey wont be around for another 29 years. I told her she will live to 100 just like what ys godmum did. Am tearing as I wrote this. 

Nobody will know when they will go, not even ys. Maybe i could go b4 her. But i realised i would have alot of regrets just like i did, when ys was sick. I didnt have a choice to quit because of the medical bills and heavy financial obligations (have a car). But now, it is different. I no longer have a car. Ys medical bills will be settled by jul. I am financially in a better position.

I will have lotsa of regrets if i dun spend enuff time with mum WHEN i can. Wont make this mistake a 2nd time. The guilt that came after ys death, is still there nearly 2 years liao.

Live your life with no regrets and trust my 6th sense.