This is what keeps me going despite feeling tired like nobody's business. Life is short, I must learn to let go and enjoy the moment. Ever since I joined the company, I could not chill and relax. Just can't stop ruminating over work.
Work triggers me, into a downward spiral. It has always been so. I never felt so in my previous job as a writer or call centre operator. There had been so many nights I lost sleep over work. My insomnia only worsened after my hubby's death.
I always envy those who adopts a wtf attitude towards work. I tried but it never seems to work. Finally I hope I am still alive by August, to slow down life, and learn to relax.
There is more to life, than work. My family, my health and friendships. Work drains me of all life energy.
Some reflections, have I learnt anything in my working life? Not a lot but I realized all the sacrifices I made, did not matter after he passed away.
I had always wanted to pursue FIRE ever since I joined this company. But now that I hit this goal, there is nobody that I can share this joy with. At home, I will continue to talk to the air as though he is still here to listen.
Cherish and love those remaining. Create memories with them 😁
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