Peers

April is the month where promotion happens. This year there were 4 promotions in my department. 

This year, I felt different from last year. Last year, I felt very jealous (out of nowhere) when one of my team was promoted to section head. She definitely deserved the promotion because she is someone who takes things in her stride and deliver. I was ashamed that I actually felt so jealous.

I was perplexed at my own emotions - if I am jealous of people getting ahead in life, why then did I leave in Jul 2024. These reflection allowed me to calm down and think through quietly. 

My colleagues are mostly at the peak of their life, chiong-ing for their families and themselves. I, on the other end, have no more need to chiong as there is only myself. 

Everybody's life is different and everyone has their values and goals. I already have enough to last me tbrough life. There is no need for me to accumulate promotions or whatsnot as they no longer matter. 

I dont feel happier with more money, what is more with titles. 

I did not have very expensive lifestyle. And do not really like to travel far nowadays.

So back to this year April, I did not feel a tinge of jealously because I know the hard work behind the promotion. I no longer want to lose appetite nor sleep over work. 有钱没命花. My mental and physical health are most important. They suffered alot and got even worse after my hubby passing.

Now, it has been 4 years since my hubby death. It still feel very recent.

I feel contented with my life. If I still want to climb the corporate ladder, I would not have quit. No regrets.

One could say that maybe I am jaded but after my husband passing, you could say I did 看开 certain things.

Health is true wealth...nothing can bring back the health once it is lost. I had some health scares since 2022 and it made me realised what truly mattered.

No amount of accolades or career progression or money could bring back the health lost. Family is also important. Spending time with them is vital.

I have grown and who knows how long I still have. There is no need to hanker after things that never was yours to have. 德不配位，为了什么呢？最终职场上，还不是一场空？