Saturday, March 15, 2025

Today is my 3rd working day for March

I only worked 6 days in Feb mainly becos I have no usher jobs. Then the no-usher-job extended into March. 

Maybe after my April training, I would quit the usher job cos they also dun have much jobs.

This month, I am also only working 5 days, 4 days as security and 1 day usher.

Had been thinking about whether this is truly what I want. And yes, it is. 

I have the ability to control when I feel like working. 

Someone asked me if I would go back to full time work. I doubt so, at least not for the next 1 or 2 years. Just want to avoid the anxiety I feel, on every working days. This is my problem but I feel anxiety even when going for usher job.

So can imagine if this is how I feel, it would be even worse 5 days a week.

Yes, i missed my fat paycheck and ability to spend without battling an eyelid, but after the past 8 months of low income, I have not died nor starved. 

A daily routine would be watching youtube, playing ps5, music instruments and jogging. Yes, I need to pick it up again. My lifestyle would not change much already. There would be times when I am extremely bored at home and I would go out to jalan jalan.

The appetite comes in and out, mainly is the end of me soon.

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