Signed up another 10km run on 8 june

After 1 week running 2xu, coll jioed me for second one. In the end, signed up for Skechers run. This time it will be a sundown run. Need to start running 6km this wed, Thurs and sun.

Onwards...

Aim for OCBC shares

I have been calculating my expenses. It could be around 2k if I try to control my impulse buying. I always have an itch to go buy some clothes when I feel very stressed. This is something I noticed a long time ago. After Jul, I won't have such a luxury anymore to buy things without batting an eyelid.

Recently, I will try to find ways to save some monies. E.g. in the past, whenever after a trip, I would spend 14 to wash and dry my bed sheets and blanket. After I came back from my Japan trip, I just used my washing machine to wash, 2 rounds. Then I innovate by drying my blanket over 2 chairs. Not too bad, saved 14 bucks.

Now I always try not to buy and see if I could use existing to substitute. E.g. my living room fan spoilt and I just used an existing fan to replace it. Had the impulse to go buy, but decided not to.

Another thing is my room Aircon started to have noises, so I decided to sleep in master room instead. So see whether the noise go away.

During Japan trip, wanted very much to go buy a branded bag, in stead just used existing monies to buy a Marc Jacob tote bag. Still luving it.

My goals for May is to see if I could buy some OCBC shares before the x date. This will narrow my gap of 350. My passive income can only bring me 1650 per month.

This is not exactly a die situation in that I could always take part time jobs to supplement my income but it is just a mental challenge I wish to impose on my self. Keep myself occupied while I count down my working days. End July, here I come.

Updated 27 April

I finally bought 1 lot of OCBC. Actually had wanted to buy when it was 12++ but I held it off, thinking it could drop. Cos there were signs that Fed could lower interest rates. But war broke out between Israel and Iran. Tensions are high. Oil price would likely stay hihh, leading to inflation.

So when I finally threw in and bought at 14.37, it dropped to 14.24. but regardless, as it dropped, will pick up more shares to lower my average costs. Will have 420 div coming May.

12 more weeks to bear... You can do it!!

Mum birthday dinner

Yenn suggsted to celebrate mum's birthday at millenia walk elemen. Food is vegan, we each ordered a 8 course dinner. Dinner was nice, has some courses that are refreshing. 

We went play gem pusher. Not much luck today, we tried other kind of machines but it is quite hard to catch and pour the things. We spent abit before gping back to our old machines. We caught 2 small stuff with 40, but geoky still want to play more to get the keychains. So after another 10 bucks, we din win any, and while yenn went to exchange, we got the 3 big keychains. Yay... mum sponsored last 10 bucks. 

Bought some cakes, then grabbed cab home. Must cherish those still alive.

Planning my semi- retirement days

Imagining what I will do:

- wake up at 8 or 9am

- have breakfast

- watch tv until 10am plus

- 11am walked to explore East coast areas, Bedok reservoir, Tampines, Katong, Aljunied

- 2-3pm go home, bathe and have light dinner. If not, go 95 bring mum out for evening walks

- 1hr reading at night

Above is on days when I have nothing like wed.

On days I go fighting (Mon, thurs, fri), go home 2-3pm bathe, light reading and tv. Or go 95 bring mum go walk. 

On days (tues, sun).I want to practise my music, go run in the mornings or after guqin.

Sat - full day with mum, geoky and yenn.

Marathon

Later I will be running my first ever marathon. I always wanted to run one n

I remembered I signed up 5km one when my sister was working in standardbchartered in 2012 but in the end I didn't cos I moved to teban on that day with my hubby.

I remembered training for it.

After he passed on, I never thought of it until I mentioned about it as one of my bucket list. My colleague Jenn encouraged me to join. But she only joined cos of me. She had some hip alignment issues so she might not be able to run. She intended to walk. Later see how, if she want to walk, then I could walk with her. But if she is running, then I will meet her back at finish line cos I know my snail pace. 

10.10am (21 april)

Writing this on my mrt ride home. I managed to jog 10km non-stop throughout. My first ever marathon medal.

Yes, completed 10km in 1hr 40mins. I did not let myself down. Fat still can jog. Yay.

Count my blessings

Had a tired day yesterday, didn't sleep well last night.

Woke up, bathed dogs, going to mop floor. Took a break first. Xiaobai urinated on the floor. What to do, she is 11 years old.

Count my blessings

I have a home, monies, mum and sisters healthy.

Able to move, eat, sleep, pee and poo.

Able to see, hear, breathe yes, breathe.

No pains

Lg and dad in heaven, no more suffering.

Towards semi-retirement!! I can feel it.

Resignation

Yesterday, I told my boss that I intended to leave early July. She wanted me to stay longer till sept, but I told her I might not be able to last till Sept mentally. Because the reason I could still move, is that I told myself this will end soon. This was what kept me going till now since my hubby's death. In the end, settled that I would tender end May and leave end July. Final.

Though I might regret quitting my nice paycheck, I would also quit the dread and anxiety that kept me awake. Would I be happy? I am not happy already so what makes me think doing the same thing would make me happy.

I believe i have enough to last my likely short life. It is finally time to unwind. I never could after I started working in 2006. 18 years....how long more would I have.

I am quitting so that i can move on to another phase - semi retirement and part time employment. So that i have time to spend with my family and still have something engaging for the mind.

Dont waver. LG definitely would support you if he knew about it. I also dreamt of my resignation - it is a sign from heavens.