Xiaobai passed on this morning between 4 to 7am, 16 Oct. I knew cos I last checked on her 3am plus and by 7am, she was gone. Uncontrollable tears and guilt but i witnessed her suffering all these while so last night I prayed YS come and bring her to heavens. They are free now.
Xiaobai always have issues with her skin, and it had been so for many years. She was always licking or biting her skin such that when she died, she was virtually hairless.
I last brought xiaobai to a vet in 2021 after HIP. She had bad diarrhea when she was staying at Sandy place. The vet was in woodlands, after YS passed on, I had not brought her to see a vet.
I only let the vet see Lily... partly because I could see Xiaobai was not in a good condition. I let her deterioriates.
In July, Xiaobai had unexplained LS episodes. Something similar to YS before he passed. I saw it as a sign. Her LS lasted until I sent her to dog nanny during Genting trip. She did not LS at all. I actually thought she could not make it because she was very thin then.
In the last 3 weeks, her LS stopped. But she lost strength in her hind legs. I thought she should be ok because loss of mobility does not equate to death. She was still eating and drinking but she lost more weight.
On her last day, she had breakfast and by night, she could not eat anymore. I thought a miracle would happen, she would slowly regain her strength but I was wrong. She was struggling to breathe and I knew she would be gone. I prayed she followed YS when he comes. I prayed for YS to come fetch her. He did.
Next morning, when I woke up, I saw her poop and urine and she had stopped breathing. Gave her a bath as promised and I used the baby powder to cover up all her sores. She was clean and smelled fragrantly. Wrapped her in a new blue blanket and called for Mandai pet crematory. Paul came 11am. Mum and Yenn came to pray for xiaobai. I did not ask for her ashes as I felt i do not want to leave one more matter to 善后 when I die.
I played 大悲咒 for her last night and this morning.
Now only Lily is left. I hope I last longer than her. Must treasure the living and each day. Not sure how long I have or Lily have.
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