SCI

I sold my stake in SCI 12 lots today at 4.10. Total profit is 23k after counting in the 10k that I have earned for SCM.

Reason for selling, hit my target price 4, and I thought of putting them into Singtel to earn dividends.

I believe Singtel would be able to withstand any recession that is to come.

Bonus

Going to get my bonus this week. I feel nothing. Maybe because I have had good bonuses all these years except my 1st year.

It is a good 3 months pay. I felt.happy for a split second, then my happiness came back to nothing. 

He is gone now, so what if I had money. My SCM shares were worth close to 50k, it is like a windfall. I was looking towards it but when i finally have it, I felt empty.

Nothing makes me feel fulfilled...work only make time pass faster. For past 1 week, I had been crying as flashes of his last moments came back. They haunt me and I am full of regrets. Nothing can turn back time. I can only look forward 1 day at a time. 

Maybe I will donk another 1 year before I leave. 

6 months

Still feeling sad after 6 months.

He won't be able to rest in peace as long as I am still in this sorrowful state.

I still rem how I spent last bday last year. I went to buy myself 2 pcs of cake from starbucks and dabao home.

I had my fair share of unhappy moments year 2020, I wanted to eat with him at a atas chinese restaurant. He went to jio my sis and mum. Then we drove there... but there was no carpark space. In the end, he dropped us off and went off.

Haiz I felt very sad then becos everytime I wanted something, the results were diasterous. I felt sad and lonely because other couples celebrate their birthdays but not us. That was why i decided to just go buy 2 cakes i want to eat on 2022. So this shall be the way forward. If I want something, I do it alone. Gave up asking him out to try new things.

I guess, this is life. Many things have happened, to led me to the conclusion tt I cant be happy with anything.

When I got promoted last year, he got hospitalised. I couldnt even give him a treat. Then when he was getting better tt we were thinking of doing da ri zi, then he passed away in Aug. How else could I think...

Keppel corp

KC record date is 24 feb, so owners of KC after this date get 19.1 scm shares. A 1cent movement in scm price may mean diff of few grands.

What if life purpose is to realise you dont need a purpose

Ran out of youtube videos to watch nowadays. So i would watch motivational videos.

I lost my goals in life after he passed on, because nothing really matters at the end of the day.

If you believe this life is to pave your way to heaven, then you would have a general purpose to do good.  

In my heart I hoped he had gone to heaven after helping people all his life.

For myself, this would be the end. I am just breathing. While I am still here, I just make the best.

Yesterday went go karting with colleagues. Ate crispy prata at simpang bedok. I enjoyed myself but I came to the realisation that the pain is still there.

Nonetheless nothing can take away the pain. Except to bring them as you moved on.

Forcing myself to have goals for 2023

It has been quite meaningless. I lost interest in everything.

Recently I felt my interest creeping back. 

I signed up for a guqin lesson. Started playing erhu.

My investment goal - if SCI rose to 4 bucks, will sell all and buy 20k Singtel. Why Singtel - low price at 2.50. Potential to double to 5. Dividends high.

I just bought 10k of singtel #2.52. Checked that my dividend income for 2022 is 14,280.

Parking between 2 cars

I started taking refresher driving lesson soon after YS' funeral was completed.

Today I were able to park my car between 2 cars. A feat that I thought I could never do. A small victory.

Today went xian dan gong with mum and G. Will request for the next lesson to learn parallel parking soon.