Thinking of what happens after 6 months

As the days go by, the day to return to my old workplace draw closer.

I feel nothing as nothing much has changed but I believe I will appreciate my old workplace more. The colleagues, the lunch kakis, the Aircon, the freedom to go toilet when I need to, having a desk (I cannot believe I am saying this), a locker, a pantry, 

These are what I have not experienced whether in my usher job, airport or security job. I can't form deep bonds with anyone. Been so for 1 year plus.

I realized I have forgotten how to book a room or even arrange a virtual meeting.

Anyway have to learn from scratch. Jiayou le even if the world falls apart, u can pick yourself up. Absorb like a sponge.

I realized that I cannot blend or mix with younger folks, dunno whether it is a generation gap or not. Don't have much to talk about. My interest are games and personal finance. 

There were times I imagine I was employed in another office setting, then I believe I won't be able to talk with my colleagues who are likely fresh graduates.

Just a lot of thoughts today, that I am literally feeling very left behind. 

But I console myself, even IF I could mix with them, the relationship is superficial. Need not think too much. They won't miss you when you are gone. Zero...

不需要执着，也不需要被想念。这才是真正的自由。